Little Black Book

2011-01-09T20:00:00.002+08:00

My body has adjusted itself to waking up early. It's freaking irritating, especially on a Sunday morning, when it's my only day to catch up on enough sleep to last me for the upcoming week. This morning, I woke up at 9am. Tell me, which idiot wakes up at 9am on Sunday morning without any plans on that day? -.-

Waves is 3 weeks away. Awesome, not.

Tomorrow is Monday. Let's start the countdown again shall we? 5 days to go before the weekend. *counting*

2010-12-31T23:21:00.003+08:00

Half an hour left to 2011.

On the way home, I reflected a lot of the things that happened to me in 2010. It had been a very tough year, no doubt. But every single incident made me who I am now. I'm proud to say that I'm stronger and more matured than before. I learnt from the past and mistakes. I moved on. I forgave and never forget.

I'm really thankful to the people who appeared in my life, to those who stayed on, to those who have always been there for me all the time. You know who you are (:

2011 is gonna be tougher, with my future at stake. Huge decisions to be made, which determines my future. It's time to grow up, and be out of my comfort zone. And right, I'm gonna hit the final two-oh. I swear I'm freaking scared and not prepared to face it all. Nevertheless, all I know is I am able to get support from the loved ones. That's all that matters.

My 2011 resolution?

I want to be wiser in my decisions, especially if it involves my future. I want to be stronger when facing setbacks. I want to be more open and daring.

I forgot how it was like to be loved again. But it doesn't matter. I already have my loved ones.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2010-12-29T18:57:00.003+08:00

I'm on MC today, cause yesterday's flu after-effect was so bad this morning, I can barely stand still. Flu's gone now, and so is all the groggy-ness. I hate how my flu can suddenly come and go. Even the doctor told me that my flu was gone and I shouldn't have come for consultation. Thank god I was still feeling groggy, so I didn't say anything back at her. I swear, if I can just blast at her, I would. I waited 2 hours and paid for the MC and medicine, and she freaking told me that. Not my fault that my immune system decided to get better before meeting her right.

Seriously, I won't ever go there again. Bad service, and patients are treated like dogs.

I slept for 6 hours, and I'm confident that I won't be able to sleep tonight -.- I guess the lack of rest is making me like this. Work, with dance ending at 9. 1 more month to survive, I can do this.

Today is already the 29th (Happy Birthday MAKCIK!). Few more days to 2011. How fast is that? A few more months to graduation, damn!

2010-12-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

Christmas eve was spent with a loved one. I swear, we looked like lesbian couple. HAHA. It's awesome to be able to soak in the Christmas spirit and listen to Christmas carols along Esplanade, watching the lights. Though I don't celebrate Christmas, I just love the festive feeling.

I've been spending my Friday nights out. I guess, that's the only way for me to de-stress, apart from dance. Work have been giving me a lot of pressure lately and I have to be on my toes all the time. I want to elaborate more, but, I just realised my blog is not private. Damn.

My initial plan is to go KL with family. But I'm too tired and lazy to pack and go out. I guess staying home and watching TV will be enough for me. Or perhaps some shopping? (:

Oh well, Merry Christmas to all, and Happy Holidays! Enjoy the long weekend! There's gonna be another long weekend next week! Awesome much!

2010-12-12T13:28:00.002+08:00

Things hasn't been going well for me. I'm at loss at what to do now. To make matters worse, the stress is making me all sickly and not energetic. I get gastric whenever I eat, and the giddy spells keep coming and going.

Sucks.

Come to think of it, lady luck hasn't been smiling at me for a very very very long time.

What to do?

2010-12-04T13:33:00.002+08:00

I just deleted a whole long post on my internship. I guess it's not safe to express my thoughts here. Ask me personally if you want to know how my first week went. I have lots to share (:

All I know is, I got to brace myself.

2010-11-28T00:05:00.002+08:00

It feels mad awesome to be able to attend Ryan's class today. I missed almost 2 months of his training, due to the project meetings and tiredness from endless reports and presentations. Now that school is over (for me!), I'm able to find more time to commit to his trainings on Saturday mornings. My stamina and techniques are getting rusty, damn. And I'm a bit slow in catching the choreo today. And plus, my endless retardness during dance, and everyone laughed. Damn embarassing or what!

Today was really awesome, being able to spend time with all the dance seniors. I felt like a year one again, heh! The celebration went well for the birthday girls, and I'm glad that our hard work in doing those scrapbooks paid off. Sab was so touched, she cried like mad. Gladys, well, she did not want to tear in front of us, so she decided to read when she's at home, so that she can cry privately, HAHA. Cute.

And I realised, this will be one of the last few birthday celebrations with the Senjas. Man. I hate graduation, I hate moving on, I hate growing up.

Tomorrow is the start of ITP (It's Sunday, 12.20am now). I'm feeling the jitters! Best of luck to me!

2010-11-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

I don't know why, it dawned to me that, well, things are not really how it seems to be. Or even how it is supposed to be. I'm not sure why, but things are getting more sour than expected. Maybe I'm just over-reacting? I just think I don't belong there.

I just hope that everything will turn out alright. Let go of the past, look forward to the future. And hope for the best. Be optimistic, and laugh it off. Things will go well, insyallah.

On a lighter note, school's out (for a VERY long period of time, unless I decide to pursue a degree upon graduation). Work starts monday, scary mary.

Now, now, I should really enjoy myself before nightmare comes (:

2010-11-23T00:44:00.002+08:00

Today was one of those days when I need a pack of M&Ms to boost my energy. Cause seriously, I felt ike a zombie, with mountains protruding from my cheek (Read: PIMPLES). But, due to my breakout, I resisted my temptation. I should be applauded for this man.

On a brighter note, my 24/7 hunger pangs is not so bad now. I lose appetite quite easily and I can't finish everything on the plate. Awesome!

Soon, I'll look slim in the Waves costumes like everyone else. Yay! ^^v

Dance trainings are beginning to wear me out, like seriously.

2010-11-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

The thing I love about Hari Raya, the food. Yes, the same old lontong, sambal paru, sambal goreng, serunding etc etc. Surprising, I don't fancy Malay food, but these are the must-haves in every special occasion.

Today is one of those days when I feel good about myself. Maybe it's true. Psychology makes me emo. HAHA. Cause I skipped the lecture today.

It's halfway through Week 5 now. Next week's going to be hectic, with Psychology presentation, CA Interview, Career Day, and 3rd Dance Vetting. And after next week, there's going to be a whole new experience waiting for me. Scary Mary!

2010-11-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

The interview with TLC yesterday totally inspired me. Seeing how cheerful he is all the time, even though he is going through the shits in his life, all he did is to learn from it, laugh it off, and move on. And live happily.

I want to be like him. Not him, his carefree personality.

And today was my first test. I think I did well. (:

2010-11-05T00:16:00.002+08:00

3 weeks had past, and now, it's left with less than a month before the real thing starts. I'm not very confident about the company I'm allocated to, all thanks to the lecturers rubbing on me making a wrong choice to reject an auditing firm. Nevertheless, I have to do what I do best; suck it up, and make the best out of it.

It has been almost 2 weeks now, and it has certainly not been easy for me. Because there is still that little bit of impression that still lingers. I broke down at school, something which I have not done before. I knew I scare the hell out of everyone, and I'm very sorry for that. So much for being strong and sucking it all up huh?

A good thing that dance has been keeping me busy all this while.

Now, SUCK IT ALL UP YUS!

2010-10-31T22:20:00.002+08:00

Now, what's the point of putting everything in a nicer way? To make you appear less like a bastard?

Like seriously, thanks eh. You made me feel like a bloody loser.

2010-10-29T19:17:00.002+08:00

It's been a bloody hard week. I was forever at places I don't want to be. I was at dance, when all I wanted to do was to be alone and cry out loud. I was even fighting back tears during dance. Even worse, choreographers were vomitting out steps 1 or 2 days before vetting. My concentration and focus was really not there at all.

I hope next week will be a much better week. Sigh.

I'm seriously am hopeless in such things. No fate, bad luck, always the wrong one.

I should put all these behind and breathe easy. And focus on projects instead.

2010-10-17T13:29:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Daddy, and Happy Birthday Lim Kia Hui Jessie! (:

Yesterday's trip to JB was awesome much. Cheap and pretty shoes made me go mad, and the non-stop munching of food. Heh.

Tomorrow marks the start of the final semester in SP. Awesome, egg-citing, but scary. HAHA.

2010-10-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

Vetting at OSchool in the morning, and then our first Senja outing cum Jiahui's birthday celebration, with everyone present! AWESOME company, AWESOME day, despite the sleepyness and the usual caffaine effect failing on me! :D

I hate insomia, especially at this period of time, when I need all the rest I can get, sigh.

2010-10-13T22:08:00.002+08:00

Finally, today is an off day from Waves training. Awesome!

School starts next week, and I'm not looking forward to it. 6 more weeks with Oh Four, before ITP, and then graduation ): What's next? Continue working, or depending on the financial situation, further studies. It's so scary.

Nyeh. I just lost the mood to blog, ah sorry!

2010-10-10T15:35:00.002+08:00

I'm restless, I'm so bored that I keep watching Diving Commonwealth Games and the half-naked divers, I kept snacking on the Wan Wan biscuit and the 3 packs of Choco Minis, I keep rolling on the living room floor like a pig, while turning on and off the fan every 15 minutues. It's such a horrible hot day, to even sit still at home, and watching diving makes me want to go swimming even though I don't know how to swim.

Now, how random can I get on a hot lazy Sunday afternoon?

-.-

2010-10-10T00:04:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so pessimistic over everything in my life now, so I rather leave blogging to another time, instead of ranting here.

FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.

2010-10-08T11:54:00.002+08:00

It's time to let go, like fully let go. I can do this (:

The second last week of holiday has been great. A whole lot of dancing, with outings after dance sessions, and my toe is recovering. I've been eating a lot, but I don't care anymore. Heh.

Timetable is out, and ITP is starting to scare me a little, especially with Waves trainings and rehearsals going on. What if I can't cope? ):

2010-10-03T16:36:00.002+08:00

That 20 minutes, was hell I tell you. I always thought I have high tolerance for pain. But once she started pressing and pulling my toes real hard, I swear I could not breathe, and my leg was so tense. GAH! She told me to refrain from cold drinks, but didn't say anything about not being able to do physical activities. HAHA. I was told that the bandage can be removed tomorrow evening. How? Do I remove it before or after dance tomorrow? ):

Bought a new spectacles, with a promise to my Mom not to wear contacts so often, only during dance days (which is like everyday for now! HAHAHA.) I feel bad for making Dad spend so much money unnecessarily on me.

Going to follow Mom to TTSH tomorrow at 8AM IN THE MORNING, OMG, KILL ME. Dance at 1.30pm, results will be released at 10.30am. Ohmygod, tomorrow will be hell.

Busy busy week ahead (okay, as always!) but I'm loving it! (:

And Mrs Kee, can you give me a call already?!

2010-09-30T12:22:00.002+08:00

Had a real busy week, but I'm loving it. At least I'm spending my holidays doing what I like to do (:

Shall not elaborate on what I did on the days, but I sure did had fun!

Oh and did I mention that I injure my second toe, and now it's swelling like nobody's business. I can't point properly, I can't put pressure on my left foot and I'm practically limping when I walk. This is the first serious injury that I had for the past, umm, 7 years of modern dance, heh.

I'm still waiting for Meiliang's reply, GRR!

2010-09-24T18:45:00.002+08:00

There's always a first time to everything. Today was my first time drawing blood, for a group of BioMed students for their FYP.

Woman: Which side do you usually take blood from?
Me: Ah, I don't know. It's my first time drawing blood.
Woman: AH! You won't faint right?!?!
Me: Ah, I don't know. Don't scare me leh (while wondering if it's possible for people to even faint when drawing blood. HAHA)

Met up with the rest to eat Seoul Garden, and it's the first time that I don't even have to cook anything! The people around me are all cooking for me, while I happily eat. Whee! It's nice to be treated like a princess yay!

I feel fucking irritated, like seriously. Thinking about it again, I just feel it's fucking unfair. I feel used, I feel stupid. So don't rub it in my face, I tell you.

There is something wrong with weighing scale at home. I gained 2kg in school, and when I got home (after eating buffet!), I lost 2kg. Seriously got my hopes high, bloody hell. ;

Intensive training starts next week, and I'm going to get all busy again. HAIYA.

2010-09-23T15:37:00.002+08:00

I didn't know I can cry so much till my head hurts.

True friends stick by you no matter what. Since people come and go, I guess these people are not your true friends right?

This saturday is the lantern festival celebration at the park beside my place. Every year, the three of us would meet up, buy lotsa candles and sparklers and play, despite us not even knowing why we are burning candles and playing with fire like everybody else. The tradition has been going on for years, and I hope it will be the same this year. It's going to be hard this time round, since all of us will be busy visiting with our own family members ;/

I'm looking forward to tomorrow's lunch (: I hope it'll be enjoyable.

It seems to be the raining season now, but oh please Mr Sky, please don't rain on Tuesday! I'm looking forward to having a great time with Oh Four at Sentosa! ):

My post is getting more and more random I know. I want to start on something else. Heh. Stay tune! (:

2010-09-21T11:52:00.002+08:00

So yesterday was a really awesome night. First time stepping into USS, first time taking a proper roller coaster, first time feeling so great shouting at the top of my lungs. A great way to relief stress, haha. A pity, we only had 4.5 hours.

I shall wait for the big roller coaster to open before going in again! Heh. Definitely once in a lifetime kind of experience, even though the ticket price sucks. (:

Planning to go shopping tomorrow before session, that is, if I'm not tired.

The makciks are coming over to my place today to hang out and eat and fly kite. I expect chaos. :P

2010-09-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

Sore muscles, naaaaise! I thought today's training starts at 9am, and I rushed to school like mad. Turned out that it starts at 9.30am instead. Started training with spring cleaning of MPH, a great warm up, especially for those who don't do housework at home (Yes, I'm referring to yours truly! (:) Today showed how lousy my stamina is. Halfway, I started panting like a mad dog and had chest pain -.-

And now, my knees are covered with smelly Salonpas, and it doesn't seem to be working. GAH!

I'm spending more money now on facial products instead of clothes. I'm in the phase when my face gets stubborn and all the blemishes starts popping out. Tsk, irritating.

I am halfway through watching Personal Taste on Youtube (:

2010-09-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

Exams are out, and here's the one month holiday. I don't feel that much of exhilaration as compared to previous times, partly due to my worrying for the results. I swear I will fucking cry if my GPA drops below my cumulative GPA.

Had an impromptu less-than-half class gathering. Lunch sucked big time, but the company was great. Did a whole lot of walking and talking nonsense. More of such gatherings coming up, since we only have 6 more weeks of school when Sem 2 starts before going on our seperate ways for ITP *inserts a sian face here*

Step Up 3 is still showing tomorrow at AMK Hub (Okay shut up. I know I'm very lagging behind. I hadn't had time to catch it!), so am going to catch it (:

I've yet to planned out on things to do for this holiday. It will definitely be a whole lot of outings, dancing, and shopping! Okay, I'm getting eggggg-cited!

Oh right. Did I mention that we get to go USS for free this monday? YOG Committee is bloody awesome or what? (:

2010-09-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

I'm fucking scared, mad, irritated, frustrated. Things had not been smooth for me this semester. Let's see, the only best thing that happened to me this semester; YOG.

For the first time, I just feel like not preparing for my papers. Since young, I have the habit of fully preparing myself before going for any test. Now, I keep having the mindset; What's the point?

I'm not getting lazy. I'm just getting discouraged.

HAIYA!

2010-09-02T12:51:00.002+08:00

I've been sleeping like a pig lately, waking up at 11am and sleeping at 1am. Sometimes, I will find myself falling asleep in between memorising my notes. Maybe memorising work is tiring me out, HAHA.

3 more, and it'll be just 6 weeks of school, before going for ITP. Almost the final lap, I have to make the best out of it.

BP paper sucks, but I know I did my very best. No regrets.

I'm not sure of being able to achieve my aim anymore. It seemed so impossible right now. Man, I do feel so lost right now.

2010-08-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

It has never been fair. That's why it's called Life, isn't it?

I totally missed Modern, and missed dancing w/o any worries. Totally felt that for the first time today, after for so long.

Fasting has been good, so far, despite all the hard core YOG trainings and all. Thank God (:

I went back to bangs today. Tried a new shop, and the hairdresser's good. Male hairdressers are always better than females. And the fact that he tries to interact with me in Malay, and I always answer back in English irritate me a little. Seriously, I don't get them trying to make me comfortable just by talking my language (which I myself am not comfortable with!). But well, my bangs turned out okay, so I'm fine (:

Back to studying, GAAAAAAH!

2010-08-10T13:00:00.002+08:00

Seriously, what am I? SKW?

You need time. I need time too. Who doesn't? So what now?

I can just easily let go, and not care. And see what you will do.

2010-07-31T19:10:00.002+08:00

Fuck. I just realised you read my blog.

Today's practise was hell, but fun. It's been so long since I danced Modern. It finally feels right, since YOG is Hiphop all the way. I tried on Gladys' pointe shoes and went on pointe, with the support of the mirror. So fun! But it hurts. Heh. I want pointe shoes too!

Slides to be done, report to be done and edited.

2010-07-31T00:20:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want. I don't want things to go further. But neither do I want our friendship to end.

I feel like a selfish bitch.

I needed time alone. But for how long? And what's next? Avoid, ignore, or a chance?

Or are you the one in disguise?

2010-07-25T17:30:00.002+08:00

Currently at RP now, doing GHRM report.

BPNV, lots of stuff not settled, and presentation is on Tuesday (Applause). On a brighter note, we are kind of done with the content on GHRM.

YOG rehearsals have been draining me out like mad.

I'm looking forward to a good sleep tonight. Hopefully.

2010-07-21T18:58:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I've updated huh. As usual, busy busy ):

2 modules down, 3 more to do. Role play presentation today was fun, and hey, I didn't know my voice can be so irritating! Everything went smoothly, despite us not having time to rehearse the whole thing. Yay!

I have yet to bathe, eat and there's reports waiting to be read/edited/done.

My dark rings and eye bags are getting worse, like thanks eh projects!

2010-07-18T16:01:00.002+08:00

This week was a total rollercoaster ride. Nothing less.

I just hope next week will be better.

I want to say everything out, blast at someone, so that I don't have to keep everything to myself. But. I shouldn't.

Sigh. FML.

2010-07-05T17:26:00.002+08:00

Previous post deleted. No point polluting my blog specially for people who just never fail to piss me off.

And thank god, it's my adapter that is spoilt. I guess I need to get one, like next week? I can't afford the time this week, bloody hell.

I just hope everything will turn out all right this time round. I don't know. I don't have that much confidence anymore.

2010-07-03T14:23:00.002+08:00

My laptop died on me. There was no battery, I turned on the adapter, but the laptop was not charging. FML. I'm currently using my dad's one, and words on the screen are so bloody small, and it's Windows 7. Plus, no photos, no music, no nothing. I'm praying real hard that it's the adapter problem. Or else, all my files will be gone ):

I shall try borrowing someone's Acer adapter on Monday and try charging it.

Now, I have to retrieve whatever I can get from my mail to do my stuff. Thank god for hotmail man.

SIGH.

2010-06-30T17:40:00.003+08:00

You know the feeling, when you tried hard enough, you don't get your desired outcome, and then you don't feel like putting in any effort anymore. Because you feel that, man, what's the point, when it's not going to pay off.

That's how I'm feeling. It's either I'm being complacent when I got what I wanted previously, or I set very high expectations.

And sometimes, I can't find anyone to tell all my problems to. Very frustrating to bottle everything up, and then burst indirectly to someone who doesn't deserve it.

I guess that's life eh?

2010-06-28T15:32:00.002+08:00

It seems like I'm freaking free right now, when I have 4 projects (for now) in hand. Well, I did my part, and I'm just waiting for the rest to finish their parts. Seriously, I think I would be one of the first to hand up my reports if there's any individual reports. Gaaaaah.

Okay, I'm staring at this blank space like some idiot. O.O

2010-06-27T23:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I dreamt that, well, I got into a relationship. Everything was all sweet and beautiful. But when I woke up, it felt like a nightmare. And I don't know why. From then on, I found myself distancing away from my phone. I chose not to reply, I chose to ignore. Scary Mary!

9am class tomorrow, haiya! The thought of school makes me sick.

Sudden outbreak of rashes. I'm suspecting my moisturiser! Tsk!

Okay, it's almost 12am now. Time to re-adjust my body clock and go to sleep. Or at least, try to! :P

2010-06-27T01:03:00.002+08:00

Everytime I feel like expressing something, I can't put it into words. It's frustrating me like hell.

Oh did you see how beautiful the moon is today? Bright and round, reminds me of Macdonalds pancake! It's been a while since I had that. I remember those days when my parents would bring me to have breakfast at Macdonalds every Sunday before madrasah.

FYP today, was stressing. Well, I don't know about the rest, but damn, I'm feeling the pressure already. It's only Week 10, another 10 more weeks to go. Doesn't help that the IC don't give much help either. Gaaaah.

"Challenges? As in challenges faced when doing survey?" "Layman's term, problems faced." We know, Mr Tan, we know. That cracked me up a lot. Thank you, Mr Tan. HAHA (:

YOG's training was fun. Tiring, but fun (: Looking forward to subsequent trainings.

School starts tomorrow. Sucks. I get all depressed whenever I think about school. Gaaaah!

2010-06-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

Guess what I wished for? I wished for every subsequent birthdays to be a blast like today (or rather, yesterday). For the first time, I finally feel convinced that my life is complete, even without a love life. Thank you all (:

Movie, Camwhore, Neoprint, Lunch & Dinner, Shopping, Cake, Presents and Surprises. Oh yes, not forgetting the best company. What more can I ask for?

Well, tomorrow, will be back to hell days. Reports, dance trainings etc etc. Damn!

2010-06-21T00:34:00.002+08:00

So, I'm nineteen, my last teenage year. Shit, I seriously feel old.

My cousins surprised me with a birthday cake during dinner just now. Doubt they'll see this though, but, well, thank you very much. Entertaining my two nieces totally wears me out. I can hardly eat properly cause they kept talking to me.

Looking forward to a good time tomorrow! Even though it's not a celebration or anything, but well, a day off from projects and dance is totally what I need! (:

Okay, I'm dead tired. Heh.

2010-06-18T17:22:00.002+08:00

It's Day 3, and I'm still having fever, flu, sore throat, and now, cough. I have to be well by today, or I can't keep up with the long training hours tomorrow. Sighhh.

More workload added to my already piling workload.

Know what's on my mind? Whether I'm truly happy, or is it just a disguise. I changed a lot during the recent years, to the extent that I don't recognise myself anymore at times.

Sigh, see what fever did to my brain? I'm thinking too much.

What the hell, just be happy Yus!

2010-06-16T22:03:00.002+08:00

I survived today! With only 6 hours of sleep the night before (mind you, I need at least 8 hours, HAHA), waking up with fever and flu, performance for AGM, rushing off to EL meeting, then FYP meeting. Woohooo! (:

Thank god tomorrow's meeting is cancelled. Finally, proper time for me to do the data.

Oh I'm tired. My nose is runny, and my throat is irritating. And I'm shivering, and I'm sweating at the same time.

Yes, I sneezed.

2010-06-13T22:28:00.002+08:00

YOG rehearsal was fun, tiring, and stressful. Spending time with the Senjas and some of the SDZ people rocks too, especially with Fried Mars Balls to end the day. Oh yes, sushi too! My mom's going to bring it back for me, yay!

Okay, that sums up my day.

And I'm struggling a lot with dance rehearsals and trainings, FYP meetups and other project meetings. Holiday, my ass!

2010-06-12T18:30:00.002+08:00

Somehow, I prefer Dear John's movie to the book. Simply one of the best movies (well, at least for me).

Dance today was freaking tiring. My stamina totally went flat, and it doesn't help that today is a heavy flow and the cramps were killing me. Nyehhh. I forsee a more exhausting day tomorrow, especially since it's hiphop, and its 5 hours long. Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeaaaaah!

I really should start on FYP research. Gaaaaah.

2010-06-11T19:50:00.002+08:00

I sincerely thank all the ITE students who actually spent a lot of their time and effort to help us fill in the lengthy survey questions. We actually managed to complete within 2 hours. Yay! No one actually rejected us when we approached them for help. Really worth all the trouble I went through with the printing of survey questions and the travelling back and forth to school. Totally cheered me up. Hopefully, it goes well for the Uni students too on Monday.

My usual hairdresser suddenly disappeared. I tried out a new one, which is totally cheap. Not bad service, and I might consider coming back (:

Dance for the next two days. Like finally!

2010-06-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

It's GSS period. I swear I could just go crazy right now. I'm penniless, and my favourite stores are having up to 50% discounts. Daaaaaamn! I asked my mom, if she could spare me some cash for my birthday. She went like,"Go shopping with me la." Hmmm, right. We have total opposite taste. SIGH.

So it's the last paper. But still loads to do. Especially FYP stuff.

Gladys just sent me the YOG video. The dance was like,"Whoa. How the hell am I supposed to do that?!" Shit. What have I gotten myself into. Gaaaaaaah!

A trip to the hairdresser tomorrow morning, followed by survey on-site (ITEs), and then hopefully if I can afford the time and money, SHOPPING. HEH.

2010-06-08T19:18:00.002+08:00

I hate it when I study so much, and yet still get tricked by the cunning questions. Blame it on my poor English, I guess. Gaaaah. On a brighter note, 1 paper down. 2 more to go. Tomorrow's paper is the killer one. And I can still watch my videos. HEE.

I just realised that everytime in this period of the month, is the worst period of my life. Same goes for last year. And this year. People may say it's a blessing in disguise, but I don't feel blessed. At all.

Oh well.

2010-06-01T17:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I look at them and wonder; Maybe there's something wrong with me. Sigh.

2010-05-27T19:07:00.002+08:00

It's healing now, thank god. I am THAT strong after all huh.

Anyhos, study mode on! MST's just around the corner. Shucks.

2010-05-24T18:15:00.002+08:00

I guess it's time to burn midnight oil and start on the things needed to be done. I haven't even compensate for the lack of sleep during the camp.

Seriously, FYP's taking too much of my time and it's only a 4-credit module, dammit.

Ritz Carlton meeting this week, BPNV presentation and report next week, 3 modules for MST the week after next. Seriously, THANK GOD I ONLY HAVE THREE MODULES TO STUDY FOR MST!

Okay, I know everyone is suffering as well. Yay, let's suffer together!

This post is totally random, gaaaaaaaah!

2010-05-23T19:49:00.002+08:00

I feel selfish and I don't know why. I'm sorry makcik, I did not do any FYP work this weekend.

Anyway, good news is that AGM has been postponed to the next 3 weeks, which is after MST. So I guess it's time for me to be MIA for dance and start concentrating on FYP and the exams.

Back from camp. Fever, sore throat, diarrhoea, and I'm burnt. Bloody hell. But the bonding rocks yay! (:

Okay la. Lots of FYP stuff to catch up with. Thanks makcik, for the outline and the combined information for FYP. Research, let's get it going!

*chop chilli chop chilli, LET'S GET THINGS DONE! chop chop chop!*

2010-05-20T17:26:00.001+08:00

I'm giving up. Sorry Meiliang for wasting two days of your efforts ):

Camp tomorrow. Hopefully it'll help to take my mind off some things, especially FYP and school stuff. And yes, especially at this period of time.

What's one more disappointment right?

2010-05-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I have to miss prep camp because of FYP. Sigh. Hope the sacrifice will be worth it.

Proposal. Slides. Survey Questions. To be done over the weekends.

Breathe.

And to everyone around me, cheer up kay.

2010-05-13T00:32:00.002+08:00

AWESOME DAY!

FYP, consultation with Tan Lii Chong, then headed out of school to kill time (wanted to go town, but alighted at Buona Vista to decide again since town is too far, could not decide between school or Clementi, and finally alighted at Clementi. Cute or what!), rushed back for HR Day briefing. Tutorial (debate, and I almost fell asleep Zzz!).

HR Day was awesome much. Loved the company! Won second place despite having the least number of participants as compared to the other group. (:

Dance was awesome too! Finally get to dance and stretch properly again! And loves LiErn's choreo! (:

Okay, I'm shagged. HAHA.

2010-05-11T19:56:00.002+08:00

Anyone who has ever worked/ is working at hotels (be it F&B or ChamberMaids or Service), please contact me. Thank you!

Please let our FYP be a success.

And please let me be able to cope with this semester's module.

2010-05-09T11:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Though I may not be your favourite child, though I don't think I can fulfil your wish of me entering to a University, but I'm still going to try my best to achieve a better future and be a good daugher. Insyallah.

I spent $20 on flowers yesterday.

2010-05-06T20:34:00.001+08:00

MEILIANG told me to mention her in my blog. (:

2010-05-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

I've been staring at this blank space for so long. So many things in my mind, but I just can't express it out. Everything's in a huge mess.

I feel like I'm drowning and there's no way out, sigh.

2010-05-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

Boy, I'm so glad that despite having our past, we can still remain as friends and be open to everything under the sun. I'm surprised at how much I could talk so freely, because it's so unlike me to do that, not unless if I'm with my Senjas or my classmates.

If only I can talk as freely to you ):

I'm still building up my courage. I promised and I don't wish to break it.

2010-05-04T09:42:00.002+08:00

Meiliang told me not to give up. And so did the rest who knew everything. I wonder if it's all worth it.

But for her sake and everybody else's, I won't.

And I hope I won't regret.

I just spilled Nescafe on my hair, OMG, EWWW! The bitter smell is damn strong, bloody hell!

2010-05-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

I guess, ...

I think i should just blog at the other blog anyway. Or maybe, I should just not blog about it.

Oh my god, I just realised that I'm dozing off. My eyelids are halfway closed now.

Oh yes, I went to JB today. And I'm shagged. And very moody too.

I have a wedding to attend to tomorrow, and I have yet to find out about the labour market and industry trend for FYP. And speaking of FYP, I'm totally like a lost sheep because the stupid meeting is only scheduled on Week 4 and the propoal submission is on Week 4, which means we're wasting our first 3 weeks, bloody hell! Not to mention, I'm lost in all the modules.

Oh FML. School sucks!

2010-04-27T17:56:00.002+08:00

Just the thought of tomorrow is killing me. School. Performance. FYP company meeting. Dance session. Back to back. Damn.

And I really think I'm going to screw this up. I've been hanging on for too long. I just know I'm going to blow it. One day. Damn.

OH, FML!

2010-04-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

I survived LA Hiphop, wheeeee~!

It had been an AWESOME experience, being able to try out a totally different genre. And I definitely think that the 'hit-and-release' movements can help a lot in modern, especially the control and the use of core muscle. Not to mention the fun and stress we went through together, with a whole lot of other moderners.

I'll definitely miss doing LA, hell yeah!

Showcase was great. What more can I say. But experiencing a different genre and being able to showcase something different was even better (: And my favourite is definitely modern genre, especially the end with JieJie and Adam. Awesome.

The Senjas (okay, with Az missing ):) had an impromptu get-together dinner at LotOne, like finally. And everyone was expectionally high today. More of such gatherings okay! <3

And I survived two crazy days of hardcore dancing with flu, fever and sorethroat. Oh, I'm so proud of myself. Yay!

CCA showcase performance on Wednesday. I got to miss my Employment Law tutorial, and it's my first proper tutorial ):

I definitely got to start reading up for FYP, and start revising the lecture notes. Yikes! Study mode: ON!

2010-04-22T19:31:00.002+08:00

I hate myself for being so timid, for not being able to stand up for my rights, for not being able to be frank to anyone. I hate how I can only get angry and frustrated on the inside, but not being able to express it out.

And I hate how my immune system always fail on me at busy times like this. Damn.

My eyes are as swollen as golf balls now. Tsk ):

2010-04-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

Never knew it would be like this, after a day of worrying. It's time to step up, and think like a man. I just hope that tomorrow's session will be a success, and hopefully, bring the team to a better level.

Because I have lots to say ): Sumpah, aku takot!

When I'm stress, my immune system always fails on me. Damn!

2010-04-19T15:46:00.003+08:00

I'm certainly not used to waking up early, having to think of what to wear the night before (I'm very fickle-minded, if I decide on the morning itself, I will surely be late for school!), and pretending to pay attention in lectures and tutorials when I'm not. Gahhhh!

Oh yes, a picture of how I look like with my new hair.

I didn't re-perm or anything (Siao ah! Think I have so much money is it? And if there is any more damage done to my hair, it's going to drop off!). Just chop it off.

Lesson starts at 8am tomorrow (OMG, how to wake up?!), and ends at 4pm, with 2 hours break in between. What a waste of time! Well at least, got LA Hiphop session to look forward to after that.

Oh shit. Means must wear shoe. HAIYA.

2010-04-18T16:23:00.003+08:00

I snipped snipped snipped my hair off. Now it's much shorter, much more curly, and much lighter. And it looks weird. HAHA. Oh well.

I'm done with organising my wardrobe and found my school supplies. Like finally.

2010-04-17T19:13:00.003+08:00

I came to a realisation: Today was the last day being a full-time dancer (cheh cheh cheh!), and next week, it'll be back to full-time student, and part-time dancer. Oh so sad!

I haven't get any pen(s) for school, and I haven't start organising my wardrobe. And I only have tomorrow to do it. Oh, I'm such a lazy bum! Not to mention a haircut, but since tomorrow is a weekend, it'll probably be packed, so I don't bother. Tsk!

Knee is not recovering, my shoulder feels funny after the 'swinging' exercise, and I landed hard on my ankle during the freestyle jumps today. Tomorrow shall be my recovery day (:

Nyeh, I stink! And I'm hungry. Mom's not home from JB yet. I want fooooooooood!

Hopefully, with school starting, it'll keep my mind off things. (:

2010-04-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

I've lost hope. It's hopeless ):

LA Hiphop totally killed me today, as usual ): Anne 'vomitted' out the last bit of choreography, plus the whole position change and stuff. Madness. Brain-freeze. And being hungry totally did not help! /: Got to drill my last part (LimKiaHuiJessie and AngLiErn, heeeeelp!).

I'm glad that there are people who can keep me smiling, even on my worst days. And dance contributed a whole lot too.

Okay, I'm tired, and there's modern training (like finally!) tomorrow at 9.30am. Goodnight.

2010-04-15T23:03:00.001+08:00

Don't let me down ):

2010-04-15T20:02:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's Friday, and I'm certainly not glad! Three more days before nightmare starts.

Seriously, I've been staring at this for the past 2 minutes, deleting and typing, but I just got nothing to say. Except that, holiday is going to end, and I can't dance/meet the dancers as much as now and it sucks! ): I certainly don't want to sit in class, pretending like I'm paying attention when I'm bloody well not. I so am not ready to get stressed up over projects and assignments all over again.

Anyhos, today was quite redundant ): Ryan did modern genre showcase choreo, and it's totally unexpected! But pretty (: And Ryan, being his funny usual self, entertained us after class. And yes, not forgetting his wise words.

"If you see the light in that amount of distance, you can only get that far." Or something like that. :P And of course, Self-Awareness.

I think I need my sleep. I was so high yesterday and today, I'm totally drained.

And you, are nothing but a disappointment ):

2010-04-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

Oh, I'm a happy happy goober! (:

I know, you know (:

But, how come I have a feeling that it's going to be the last?

Dance. Dance. Dance.

Okay la, my post makes no sense.

*flies up*

2010-04-11T11:06:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was awesome much! (:

CIP, flag day early in the morning. Had MacDonald's breakfast (Hotcakes! Whee!), and then headed to town to collect some $$$. Not an awesome experience. People stared at me like as though I'm going to rob them @#$%^@#%^! Went to Far East Plaza, walked around, before returning the cans.

And Meiliang's disappearance got me all worried. Haha.

FUYO was awesome. SP did great, the atmosphere rocked, the bboys were cool. (:

Ended at 11 plus, and the Woodlanders all squeezed into Zul's car. 5 people squeezed at the back seat. Cool or what. And sorry Meiliang, I know I'm heavy ):

And obviously, got shit from my parents -.-"

Oh, tomorrow's beach day! Wheee, can't wait! (:

2010-04-10T00:33:00.002+08:00

Today, woke up, prepare for dance, LA hiphop, slacked at school and studio till 10plus (with heart to heart talks with Jiahui and Meimei and talked to Uncle about his army experience while waiting for Meiliang and Gladys to end hiphop), and then back home.

Basically, that's all.

Sigh.

2010-04-08T21:04:00.002+08:00

I'm too lazy to update properly. Basically, my whole week was/is going to be filled up with dance. And getting sick does not help either.

Oh yes, and not to forget a huge excitement yesterday! *huge grin*

And I finally satisfy my sushi craving today (:

Oh, and so can't wait for beach outing, yeah!

2010-04-07T11:45:00.002+08:00

Guilty. Guilty. Guilty.

I hate the fact that people are upset because of me. I had been in their shoes, and I knew how hurtful it was.

Please, just don't do anything stupid because of me.

I suddenly miss my girls ):

2010-04-06T18:38:00.002+08:00

I survived today, thank god. My head was killing me, my nose kept secreting mucus like crazy and I kept sneezing ):

Dance was awesome, as usual. Just that the studio at OSchool is freaking small, so we kept hitting each other.

Lunch-ed at Swensens, with ice-cream and cake (: and celebrated Amanda's birthday (: Freaking sinful, but it's quite cheap. Because of the one-for-one lunch meal and ice-cream student price (: AWESOME!

Went around Far East and Wisma (only got one top, not bad hehe! I resisted temptations okay!). Was tempted to get no-degree glasses and blood red hair extensions :/

Loads to do this week! ):

2010-04-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

Loved today! Especially the company. <333

Let's just say, I shopped till I dropped. It's time to put my monthly allowance in my bank account, instead of just keeping it in the drawer. Each time I go out, I'll just grab a blue note, and at the end of the week, I realised that all the 5 notes are gone! Sheesh. I'm a shopaholic, I know ):

But I'm really really satisfied with my shopping today (: And I should start re-organising my wardrobe again. And I've got another organiser to complete before school starts. Maybe I should just stay home and get the things completed first before going out. Heh.

Okay, time for a bath.

And I thought to myself, I think I've spent too much time on things that I could not get, when instead, I can just do without those things. So, let's just forget about it, shall I? (:

And today's Strawberry Red Tea is super nice. Oh shit. I think Nadiah influenced me already ):

2010-04-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

Heh, Senja Outing on thursday was great! Too bad Sab and Az were not there ): Next outing, EVERYONE must come okay! I organised until like mad ): And camwhoring sessions with the Senjas was fun! (:

Good Friday, stayed home to finish up my organiser. I like! (:

Today, training was hell, but I like! Had a short PT before training (and it was so unexpected! Ryan never gave us PT before!), and Ryan continued the Eclipse choreography. Freaking nice! My favourite so far! (: The juniors showcase was awesome! Everyone did a good job! <333

Had ice-cream and lasagna for dinner. Bloated. And much more jokes on the way back home (:

Me and Nadiah were walking home, and there were some Malay kids.

Kid: Eh, aku spread ah kau matair ngan XXX! (Eh, I'll spread the news that you're attached with XXX!)
~ some arguments in between which I don't really remember~
Me: Eh, then I spread butter ah!

And after this incident, me and Nadiah started talking in English with the Malay/Minah accent. Hilarious! (:

Today is one of the days when dance really cheered me up <3

2010-04-01T00:51:00.001+08:00

I was in my emo-self today, probably because I visited the rooftop and all the memories came rushing back to me. Bloody hell.

Even dance can't cheer me up today ):

2010-03-30T19:50:00.003+08:00

Dance today was bleargh! So short, and stupid yoga people chased us out. Can't even spare us a bloody minute! So short, didn't sweat at all ):

Went to check out some stuff with Nadiah at Causeway, and she kept singing to herself, and I kept distancing myself away from her. HAHA

Had a real good nap as soon as I reached home. Rainy weather rocks!

2010-03-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

Randoms:

I miss my old hair. Bangs is irritating. And my curls and natural hair growing halfway are killing me. It's so messy and the curls are so uneven, I don't know what to do! ): I'm going to try some Liese product that I saw in Cleo soon. When I get my next month's allowance. And probably a haircut too.

My face looked like total crap in this. And it's not straight, TSK! ):

And I really like this picture of us on stage. Credits goes to whomever who took it! (:

2010-03-28T00:55:00.003+08:00

Started the day with my all-time-favourite Nescafe. And hey, it's very effective (:

Ryan came and taught new choreo, Eclipse. Damn nice, but very technical. And somehow I could absorb faster today, whee! (:

SDZ did awesome for Dance Delight. (:

Dance filling up my holiday makes me very happy, yay!

2010-03-27T00:59:00.004+08:00

I just realised that it's been a really long time since I last drank Nescafe. Like say, a month ago? I guess I'll need it tomorrow before training. It's 1am now, and I'm awake, and I have to wake up at 7am tomorrow for training :X

LA Hiphop was fun, Modern was tiring, probably due to LA Hiphop earlier on. Loooooong day today. And loooooong day tomorrow. Going to watch Dance Delight after Modern tomorrow, whee! (:

Gaaaah, I'm really tired now.

2010-03-25T15:40:00.002+08:00

You're Beautiful is nice. But the ending is so blah! ):

Feel so lethargic today, and I don't know why. The weather's perfect for an afternoon nap, heh.

I have the itch to buy heels. But what's stopping me is my budget, my tolerance for the pain from wearing heels (which is rather low), and that no one wears heels to school (okay, maybe a few or during presentations). HAIYA.

Okay la, my life is boring, and I have nothing to say.

2010-03-24T11:36:00.002+08:00

Alhamdullilah, I've achieved my spaceship.

Thanks to you.

I don't know how to do well the next time, without you giving me all those talks.

2010-03-22T18:17:00.003+08:00

Shopped till I drop! Wheeee! I swear, it's the best remedy to get over the painful moments. Especially when you're alone, and there's no crowd, and no one's there to hurry you up or bug you (:

But, I'm officially broke. Damn. I have to survive on bread or instant noodles now ):

Okay, I want to get back to You're Beautiful (:

2010-03-21T00:50:00.003+08:00

Two dance concerts back to back. I'm shagged and broke. Heh.

18th March (Friday), had L.A Hiphop, with basic L.A elements in it. Cool stuff. Anne taught a bit of choreo, which I still look awkward in it. :/ Well, FIGHTING! (:

Watched The Emerging Choreographers II by T.H.E Second Dance Company at NUS UCC Theatre. Got a little lost in the drizzle, thanks to me. Sincere apologies to all the 17 of you! ): It's a disappointment, because seriously, I don't get a single shit of what they were trying to do, or at least portray. And the songs/sound used were freaking irritating. I'm sorry, maybe I don't understand such cheem kind of dance. Just my opinion, please don't hate me. :/ But I'm amazed at how they can dance to silence. Like really silence, with no music. The only thing I could hear was them breathing heavily.

Ended the night with Happy Meal as supper at MacDonalds. And the walk home, which was not good. Shall not elaborate.

19th March (Saturday), had Modern training in the morning. Did techniques, and I realised that my turnouts and body posture during the bar exercise are total crap. Sigh ): Rushed back home, took a 30min nap, and then went out again.

The TPDE Production, GEM 5: Labyrinth at TP was rather nice. Nice choreographies, nice storyline (well, at least I can understand it), nice acting (: Modern side was quite nice, and interesting ideas. I could totally differentiate between Ryan choreographies and students' choreographies. The moderners looked like small angels, which Cherie mentioned looked like our juniors, all short and tiny. Haha.

Ended the night with LJS, and the long train ride home.

I'm super shagged. To end this post, let me tempt my readers with the Fondue we had before the combined training on Wednesday, heh (:

OMFG, it's bloody sinful! But WOOOOH! (:

2010-03-18T19:06:00.003+08:00

"I want you to remember me someday, I want you to hear our song at some random moment. And I want you to feel a stabbing pain, go right through the middle of your heart and for that fleeting moment in time, I want you to feel like I did."

~http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com

I totally missed the times when we were so close and bonded. This picture was taken during one of our "Pink Day". One more year, before we go on our separate ways.

Seriously, staying at home the whole day is killing me.

2010-03-17T23:30:00.003+08:00

I miss my girls lots ):

Yes, THEM! <333

I finally got to meet Vanne and Kiwi in school today, coincidentally.

Even being friends, there'll still be this awkwardness. Now, I really wished nothing had happened in the first place, and that we were still commenting on each other's walls till 200+ comments ):

And finally, no dance tomorrow. I need my rest.

2010-03-16T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hello. Nothing much to update today. Had modern genre training. And I still haven't recover from yesterday's performance. Here's some photos from yesterday's performance (:

Cam-whoring at backstage.

Attempted a baby freeze. I pointed my feet, and my front foot is sickle, I know ): But look at the dance studio! Freaking awesome or what!

On stage, our ending bow. Wheee! (:

I went home, in the train and bus all the way from Simei ITE, with this hairstyle. I swear, people stared at me like I'm some ghost.

Jiahui bought the Senjas rubber duckies, OMG so cute! And irritating as well. AWWWWW (:

Combined training tomorrow. Basically, it's jogging time ): Seriously, the last time I went jogging was two years ago! Gaaaaaaah! It's going to be heeeeeelllllllll!

Okay, time to bathe (:

2010-03-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!

Tonight, (or rather, last night, since it's 1am now) was one of the most awesome-est performance I ever had.

Hospitality by the organisers of iTalent was DA BEST! Firstly, we were treated like some VIPs, with awesome dinner (we topped up our food and even packed some food! HAHA, omg, aunties!). Then we were allowed to rehearse in the most awesome-est dance studio ever, with huge glass windows to see the scenery and even dance mat! The Afro-haired guy (who used to be a ballerina, according to YanPing) even bought a cake specially for our birthday girl today! AWESOME OR WHAT!

Okay, you may think like "CHEYYYY!". But hey, we performers get all the kind of shit treatments by organisers okay. Some made us wait for hours, some did not provide us with meals, some even cancelled our items at the very last minute. Even though we're performing for free.

Anyhos, not just the organisers, EVERYONE, including the participants and backstage crew were so friendly and supportive. With the constant "Hi"s and "Good Luck"s and "All the best"s and "Good Job"s. (:

Heh, and we daring-ly tried out a new hairstyle: The abused women hairstyle. Heh, pictures will be up soon. I took 40mins to wash my hair, TSK. The amount of hairspray used was crazy luh!

Everything turned out well. I teared before and after the performance, and I don't know why. It's supposed to be a dance to portray our frustrations after being dumped by the other half, exactly what I'm sort of going through right now. So yeap, quite overwhelming.

The greatest disappointment: We really wanted Gladys to be there. We wanted to find her and hug her and cry together. But we could not meet her ): Hopefully, there'll be other opportunities.

Really, thank you Gladys for providing me another opportunity to dance your choreo. Like what the girls said, your choreographies are always awesome! Especially this one. And thank you dancers for making it happen, and making this awesome performance happened. I love yall (:

There is modern genre training tomorrow, at 11am. How am I supposed to wake up? ):

2010-03-15T00:07:00.003+08:00

I'm so nervous for tomorrow's performance, OMGZZZZ! Let's do our best tomorrow, okay! (: And thank you Gladys for the awesome (and tiring!) choreography <3> The dancers with Nadiah and Gladys <3

Come to think of it, this is my 7th year in modern dance. And also the last ): Sigh, I can feel my muscles worning out.

I want to achieve this by the end of this year. This is by far, my worst weakness. Fighting! (:

And here's some stuff which I tried to do. Still have a long way to go huh? :X

I promised myself, no more talking about you. Because deep inside, I'm one hell of a superwoman. I know

2010-03-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

“ You know how you’re watching a movie, and you kind of already know how it’s gonna end, but you watch it anyway, just because? Well, that’s how it was with you. I knew it was only a matter of time, that it was gonna come out sooner or later. I knew how it was going to end. But I went on with it. I kept feeling the way I did because as selfish as it sounds it made me happy. You made me happy. Now though, you’re gone, and I have no-one to turn to. Would I take it all back if I had the chance? Yes, I would. If I could do it all over again I’d wish never to have met you at all. Because no matter how happy I was at the time, in the end all you left me with was pain. ”

-http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com

2010-03-13T22:06:00.003+08:00

I still feel lost. There's no one to watch stars with me, no one to tell me to stop being ridiculous, no lunch/chocolate delivery, no more going to the rooftops.

2010-03-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

I totally went flat each time after rehearsing Gladys' choreo today, omgzzz. I don't think it's the LA Hiphop that killed me. Probably just my lousy stamina today, and my mood. The Salonpas works wonders, yay! And I seriously need to get a better quality plaster for the bleeding blister.

LA today was fun. Did basics, and I looked funny. But fun. Wheeeeee! (:

Modern tomorrow morning, gosh. I think I need to get more Salonpas.

And I'm on my way, from getting away. Tough, but at least, I'm moving. I know I'm strong. Memories do set me back at times (well, most of the time), but beautiful but hurtful memories are meant to be forgotten, right? It's the second day today. And I hope this continues (:

I miss my girls, a lot. I miss my heart to heart talks with them ): And there's two new movies coming out. Catch them soon kay girls? :P

HAIYA, I TOTALLY MISS MY GIRLS ):